Wednesday, 20 June 2012
Wow the word has scared me so many times. Girls can be MEAN to one another. Have you ever seen a playground of girls? Having monitored classes on the playground, girls can hurt one another. Words are used as weapons. Groups of girls are mean to other girls. Hateful words spoken.
I have also been on the playground of girls, and been the victim of others words. Picked last to play on the teams or games just because I was different. Words cutting deep to my heart when I was told, "No, you can't play with us." Shunned by the other girls. Made fun of because of my back brace. Made fun of even when I did not wear it because they knew I had it sometimes.
Yet girlfriends are needed in my life. I need the community and friendship of them. I have to risk letting someone in.
It is risky to open up your heart to another person. It is risky to say I will trust you with the deep things of my soul. What if your friend betrays your confidence? What if you are ridiculed? What if you are rejected?
I have a few trusted girlfriends that know my heart. They know the pain within and the listen with their hearts to the pain and just love me anyway. Safe community has given me grace, security and freedom to risk. Sharing in safe community I have found friendships that are deep and real. These ladies know me so well. They know my sorrows and laughter.
Recently, I have been stepping out of my community of friends. I asked someone if I could get to know them. She said yes. It has been fun hanging out and getting to know her. I am risking, but it is worth the risk because with out the risk I would not know her friendship.
Have you risked? If not, why haven't you? What is holding you back?